Wednesday, April 25, 2012
The eve of my discontent.
What do you do when you hate everything?
Right now, I currently
hate my job.
Hate my home.
Hate that I have no career.
Hate that I have no drive.
Hate that I have no money.
Hate that I can't stop hating.
Omg I don't even want to post this because its so... emo!
I love my daughter!
I love my partner!
I love walks in the fresh spring air.
I love that I HAVE a home.
I love that I have a car.
I love we live where there is food.
I love that I have a job. (that pays pretty well)
I need help deciding where to go next in life though.
Deciding on a career
Deciding on what steps to take. Usually I'm that smug chicky with all the answers - for everyone else...
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I'm thinking about going back to school to become an RMT because I feel so much like this so many days of the week.
ReplyDeleteMaybe a major change (like becoming a full time student again) is something you should think about too?
I'm scared to become a full time student, because I am already so in debt, and I have Alex all the time. I would LOVE to be an RMT, or a personal trainer, or SOMETHING that helps other people... I think I have to wait out the rest of my car loan, and then see about school after that financial monkey is off my back...
ReplyDeleteBut it's deciding what to do. I have no idea what I want to do.
I hear ya Lauren. I'm looking at 2 years of poverty and pulling a LOT of strings to manage my own debt (I have a car loan, and previous school loan for the web design and internet marketing, etc). I've finally realized that it's ok for me to suffer today for a better tomorrow, rather than suffer all along with no control at all over it and no way out...
ReplyDeleteI know we're in two totally different places, especially since you have Alex.